Monday, May 12, 2014
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
I had a PCP appt on 3/31- had blood work done and everything looked AMAZING except for my stinking blood sugar! I’ll admit that I wasn’t taking the medicine as consistently as I should have been, but to my defense it’s super hard to take and it wasn’t even that effective anymore. SO- my doctor prescribed me Glyburide to take in addition to Metformin. Now I’m taking 1 Glyburide tablet and 1 Metformin tablet twice a day and my blood sugars have been consistently getting better! I’ve seen readings of 94! Fasting levels of 135! It’s much easier to take my medicine, and it’s obviously much more effective. I have been eating so well that it even surprises me! I LOVE APPLES! I’ve always avoided them because as a kid I didn’t like the texture, or the soft spots, or when they got all gritty feeling… I had issues, anyways, now that I’m just about 30 I cannot get enough of them! Haha, they are nature’s candy in my eyes! I even had one for breakfast, and my favorite thing to do is put a little pb on it, but plain is amazing too! I could go on, but really, I’ll stop.
My A1C is going to be re-evaluated at the end of May to have it all checked again and get my referral to see Reshef. Life is going to get a lot more interesting for us soon! Not only are we pursuing treatment, but we’re getting our house ready to put on the market! An opportunity arose and it would be very foolish of us to turn it down. My mother in law’s house caught on fire and is considered a total loss. Luckily for her she was smart and even though the house has been paid off for decades she continued to insure it and had a great replacement cost on it. This house is being renovated and though it’s going to stay the same size (pretty dang small, and only two bedrooms, 1 bath) it’s going to be completely brand new inside and out. New appliances, new cabinets, floors, walls, carpet, bathroom, everything is being brought up to code… and my MIL is begging us to sell our house and live there to save money (she has another property that she lives at so we would NOT be living with her)! There are so many pros for doing this, yet surprisingly a lot of cons too, but we’re making it happen because we know that it’s going to be a temporary inconvenience for so much gain in the long run. We haven’t worked out the details too much but I know we’d maintain the property, pay the utilities like we would in our home, and I’m certain we would put monthly deposits in a savings account for her to pay the insurance/property taxes. Even with those expenses we’ll be debt free shortly after the sale of our home and on to saving to build our dream home. For now, we’re simplifying things in our home, fixing the things that need to be fixed, and getting it ready to sell. Once the renovations on the new house are complete (should be November) we’re contemplating moving into it so that we are able to stage our home for easier sale. Lots of things to figure out, but SO SO SO excited for what this means for our future!
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Training with Lindsay has been a really great experience for me. I’m not a very social person, in fact, I’ve had a gym membership for years and I couldn’t tell you a name of anyone who works at my gym. I don’t know anyone else who goes to my gym, and chances are if I did, I’d probably have pretend not to see them anyways. People don’t look at me, or if they do I don’t see them because I don’t look at anyone else. I’m usually focused on what I’m doing, or my music. My old gym had a cardio cinema; a dark room, with a big screen tv projector that played movies… Even then I’d still listen to my music and just watch whatever was on there. I liked working out in the dark and no opportunities for anyone to talk to me, haha.
Lindsay, on the other hand, is very social! She came to my gym for our first few sessions, and was pretty aggressive with machines and asked people when they’d be through and whatnot. I would never have done that, lol! I would silently stalk around the area until the machine was free or I gave up! Then Monday we had our first session at her gym and I got to see just how social you can get at the gym! I have definitely gotten more social since spending more time with her, which I can tell has been very good for me. Yesterday, I survived my first leg day. To tell you how hard core she is, I’m going to attempt to describe the things she’s having me do.
Leg Day #1 aka the day I fell on my butt going down stairs.
5 min warm up on the adaptive motion trainer 10 incline/10 resistance
12 squats with the machine that the squat bar is kind of rubber banded to the machine so you can’t really drop it.
Alternated with 15 on each leg squat/step up/kick things while she had her turn with the machine.
We did 4 sets each of those two workouts simultaneously.
Then 12 lunges on each leg, 4 sets. (That’s 96 lunges people!!)
Then this one move where I laid on the ground and pushed the squat bar up with a leg, 15 on each leg.
This is where I first started feeling a bit nauseas, but determined not to complain, I said, um my nausea level is at a 2-3.
I was allowed a small water break to collect myself, then finish some more lunges.
Then I walked with her as she did her weighted lunges down the center of the gym.
We did this squat machine using only 1 leg at a time, 15 reps, 4 sets.
Alternated with this machine that you laid down on, and pulled weights towards your butt. 12 reps, 4 sets.
I followed her to this small free weight area, where we did a bit of circuit style training
used a small 5lb kettle ball to do 15 plie’ squats, then 15 squats with straight bar in front, then 10 floor laying, one legged, pelvic thrusts and holds.
We did 4 reps of each of those.
By the end of this work out, I felt like I was going to throw up and I felt a bit dizzy when I stood up after my last rep. We went upstairs to grab her back, and while upstairs already hurt, I wasn’t prepared for the evil that is going downstairs after leg day. About half way down, my left leg gave out and I slipped down a couple steps on my booty. I know, I was just as shocked that it happened, myself!
When I got home I had a quick protein shake, and later that night I was visited by Aunt Flow. I knew she was on her way, but man, I’m in a LOT of pain at the moment!
Anyways, my workout was brutal, but I loved it. I love the feeling of pushing myself harder than I ever would. I would NEVER do these things on my own! I have zero desire to exert myself that much, haha! That’s why I’m so grateful to have her pushing me towards my goal, she doesn’t back down when it gets tough and that’s a lesson I’m about to learn!!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
I’ve been pretty quiet on my blog, but all that’s about to change! I’m SO close to my goal weight, that now would be a good time to push myself even harder. So I decided to do another 90 day Body by VI Challenge. The end goal is to make a date with Dr. Reshef in 90 days! I’ve been working out for a few weeks but my challenge officially started yesterday. It’s been a tad too cold to enjoy a smoothie so I found an amazing body by VI cupcake recipe and decided to tweak it!
Body by VI Blueberry Cupcake
1 Cup Shape Mix
½ Cup Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk
½ teaspoon baking powder
½ Cup of dried blueberries (my addition, which turned out to be an excellent idea!)
Bake at 350 degrees for 15 minutes
This recipe makes 6 cupcakes, one for breakfast, and one for lunch for 3 days. I baked them on Sunday, let them cool completely, and then placed them in a Ziploc baggy in the refrigerator. To prepare, I microwave one for 10-15 seconds and usually drink it with black coffee.
I’m making different variations of this; my next batch I’m going to add orange extract and dried cranberries!
What I’m doing during this challenge is:
· Taking a daily vitamin
· Taking Vitamin D
· Taking Pregnitude 2x daily
· Taking 2000mg Metformin daily
· Utilizing the Body by VI product & eating lean.
· Every other week I work out/train with my friend Lindsay
· The weeks I’m not working out with Lindsay, I’m still working out!
· I have a feeling AF is about to show; I’ve had sore bbs for at least a week and some would say that I’ve been slightly more emotional, LOL. When she does, I’m going to start temping again.
For the next 90 days I’m focusing on MYSELF. I’ve decided to move more, take the stairs, and dance when I’m filing at work since no one can see me anyways, lol. Instead of unneeded snacking, I’ve switched to sugar free gum! I know that in 90 days I’m going to be really glad I started this now. I know my blood sugar readings are only going to get better! I know I’m going to shed pounds, pants sizes, even better… I could get pregnant J
Friday, January 3, 2014
So, we changed up our plan a little bit this year- we went to a club! Those who know us, know that the club is NOT our scene! Buuuut we’ve done a lot of changing over the last year and the club was exactly what I needed! I had so much fun, and I was so happy, haha! I’ve had a very rough couple of months, a lot of crazy stuff is going on… To which I’ve realized the extent of how bad of a habit I have of putting my friends and family’s problems on like a coat and wearing them around like it’s my burden to bear. It really felt like no matter which way I ran, I ran into trouble, pressure, someone’s upset, something big and uncontrollable would happen to someone I love. It became all too much! So, I decided that on NYE I was going to just cut loose and let myself have fun! I have some pretty wicked social anxiety that my friends force me to confront and really I think that’s really been the BEST thing for my soul. I’ve figured out that everything is going to be okay. Happiness is a choice, circumstances are not. I used to think happiness was being in control of every detail of your life, and I strived for perfection every single time. I have realized that striving for perfection and complete control is a fool’s mission; while striving for those things is good, depending on them to gauge happiness is WRONG!
I struggled a bit on NYE (for a brief moment), because a lot of my mommy friends were very vocal about how much better it is to stay home with their babies, and how stupid it is to go out. It made me feel a bit guilty about our going out on the town plans, like it wasn’t the right thing to do. Brannon and I talked about it on the way to our friends house and he put it into perspective for me. He reminded me that that is our end goal, and that if we had the children we have been trying for, we’d be at home with them too. And if it were up to us, that’s how it would be… but we don’t have children, and we are still young, and we have some pretty amazing friends, why not take advantage of that? Why not live the life we have? He’s so smart J It made so much sense to me and all the guilt melted away. I am still floating on the clouds of that night! I don’t think I have ever felt so whole, so happy with myself and who I am. I’m in a very good place, and I’m so grateful for the people I have been blessed with!!
Well, my next post will more than likely be a picture post! I have some fun ones to share, most of which are already on fb, but some that aren’t .
Oh! Last night I had a gym date with my friend Lindsey! I just love this girl to pieces; she’s super talented in the gym, and really obsessed with fitness! I think we are talking about having her training me every other week, and we started last night. She worked me out pretty hard, we were talking so much I lost count on my reps, haha! She taught me how to use many machines that I had never tried before, and she introduced me to the free weight area, an area that has been a huge intimidation zone for me because of all the meatheads that like to hang out in that area, lol. I’m much more confident than I have been in the past, so while it was scary, it was also empowering! I am so pumped about this, and so so so so so grateful that she’s helping me!!
Cheers to the New Year & Making your dreams come true!!
Sunday, December 1, 2013
While my holiday was not how I would have planned, or as traditional as I would have liked... I still carved out some beautiful memories for myself and really enjoyed myself. I'm going to try and let that be a lesson to myself for next year, it's much nicer to just adjust your sails sometimes, instead of fighting against the way things are going to go.
Brannon and I are in a merry mood and are fluffing our nest for the holidays. We are planning to deck the halls this week! We are also putting our blessings bags together, I have been crocheting hats for them as well! I'm enjoying many a cup of tea- life is really good!
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
I love the holidays. I love Thanksgiving, I absolutely adore Christmas. What I don't like is stress and disappointment. I'm having a very hard time with this holiday, mostly in part to my mother in law (it's very unintentional, but it's still causing me heartache). My mother in law is a larger than life character with a huge heart for God, and a deep compassion for people and most of all, animals. Her brain is a very busy place and I find myself overwhelmed by her, a lot. I love her, she's a big part of our lives- but she runs things much differently than I would. One of the things I look forward to is contributing to Thanksgiving dinner. My idea of thanksgiving is getting together with family, pot luck style, and you visit and eat and eat and visit and a merry time is had by all! My mil loves to be the hero in the kitchen, despite my many attempts to help her it's the same every year (except the year she decided we were just going to eat at golden corral FOR TG... Soul crushingly disappointed that time). For as long as her son and I have been married- Anytime I tell her what I'm going to make, she makes it instead... Or to my devastation she brings it store bought.
The past few years have made it harder to face the holidays childless. Honestly most holidays are child oriented and well, look at us all grown up and fresh out of children! It's not a main focus of mine during the holidays but it's in the background. Adding stressors on top of that adds pressure to me. So when I told my mil Sunday what I was bringing (she asked)... I told her homemade yeast rolls and sweet potatoes. (forgetting that she does this to me, and I was proud of my contributions) Yesterday she called Brannon and told him the 50 million things she was bringing and he heard rolls... Well he immediately griped at her for it (mostly because he knew how bratty I was going to act when he told me). I had a maaaaajor tantrum lol. I may have screamed about store bought rolls more than a grown woman ever should...
I took an ambien, fought it just enough to giggle for no reason and put myself to bed. I woke up this morning still a little mad, but with a different perspective.
Brannon and I have been bad about making traditions during the holidays. Since we travel so much during them, we forget to keep something sacred for us. I really need a reason to look forward to these events... Something that can't be ruined by someone else. Brannon and I decided that our Thanksgiving tradition will be to put together blessing bags for homeless people and also for children entering the shelter and foster care (they contain a blanket and stuffed animal and such). It's really put some pep into my attitude this evening! I will show up to TG tomorrow with a smile, sweet potatoes, roasted broccoli, and a grateful heart.
Thursday, November 7, 2013
I've been half dreading this post - the birthday blog – due to the fact I haven’t quite come to any conclusions about turning 29. (Which is why it’s 3 days late) I didn't feel overly anxious nor particularly calm. I don’t have very many regrets about my 20s thus far, and I know that those I do have are just a product of peer/self pressure. I have pride and I have disappointments. I feel young and I feel old. I am comfortable in my skin and still totally self conscious at times. I both know what I want to come in my life and have no idea how or when it will happen. Sometimes that is completely and utterly overwhelming, and sometimes that is somehow entirely manageable. But I think at 29, versus 25,26,27, or 28, I realize that it's not about knowing everything, it's about handling the inability to truly know anything. Any life worth living is a balancing act of passions and obligations, family and friends, fears and desires. I have not fully mastered any of those things, but on any given day I can feel in control of one or some. Those moments on those days feels good, and that good feeling gives me hope, and that hope makes me excited about all the next days to come.
It’s weird how much my life really has changed in the last year... I’ve been blessed with some truly amazing friends- some of them I never expected to be such a big part of my life… Life is funny like that sometimes! Brannon, oh my Brannon… This year has really been my favorite of ours together. Not to say it hasn’t had its ups and downs, but even when you’ve been married a million years- issues can and will arise- it’s how you tackle these issues that makes or breaks your marriage. He is my best friend and SO much more- and I want MORE. The good, the bad, the everything. He worked so hard to give me a great birthday and I couldn’t imagine it any better!
So with the birthday mumbo jumbo out of the way, I’ll fill you in on my health. I really, truly thought my gallbladder was acting up. Most all of my symptoms pointed to that. I had an ultrasound, it cost me nothing and I had to wait nearly a week for the results for… THEN I was scheduled for a hida scan- which cost me $250 and I found out mere HOURS later that MY GALLBLADDER IS PERFECT. GEE THANKS. It made me sick to know that I basically flushed $250 down the toilet, only to add insult to injury and have my doctor call me and tell me I could just be having REALLY BAD reflux. I’m going to be taking prilosec for the remainder of my days. IF the prilosec does not start relieving my symptoms in a couple weeks I will seek further treatment. Until then, I’m just going to fight through the pain since it doesn’t appear that any of my organs are failing at this point. I don’t know why I’m hurting so badly! I’m 29 and everything hurts, lol. My back, my tummy- all day long. SO Brannon & I have come up with a plan! We are getting a brand new memory foam mattress, I’m adding probiotics to my diet, and I’m probably going to start seeing a chiropractor. I don’t know what’s going on with my body right now, but what I do know is… it’s not working for me and I want to fix it. I’m too young to feel this dern old.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Yesterday I had a follow up with my PCP to go over blood work and the such! I had a bunch more things that I wanted to talk about as well so I was pretty happy to go to my appointment today. The nurse checked my vitals first, of course, and my blood pressure was good- 122/82, but my temperature was elevated. She informed me that I had a low grade fever and asked me if I was feeling okay. I felt fine- so she checked me over; no congestion, no fluid on my ears, not any of the usual suspects as far as fevers go. She kept asking me to give her some symptoms- even if I thought it was unrelated. I thought for a second and remembered that I wanted to talk to her about a few of the pains I was having in my abdominal area and my back. She pressed on my RUQ (Right Upper Quadrant) and it was sore so she said she wanted to schedule me for an ultrasound of my gallbladder. I have that scheduled for tomorrow at 8am. My pain level at the moment is manageable but worrisome because it hurts in the RUQ area and directly through my back. I’m also having epigastric pains at night that are pretty intense, I’m just ready for the pain to go away.
The good news is, with my diet and my newly dubbed best friend Metformin, I was able to completely get rid of my need for fast acting insulin! I only require 1/3 the dose of my slow acting insulin and she believes in few months of my continued regime I will no longer require that as well! I’m ecstatic!! Body by Vi really has been a miracle for me! I love the control it has given me over my body!! All this life changing stuff is happening to me- all because I took a chance on a shake powder… Best decision of 2013 for me for sure! I’m not selling it, but my best friend Meredith is. (Meredith has lost more than 70# using this product, her story is AMAZING!) If you’re interested or want any more information regarding Body by Vi here is a link to her website. http://meredithgarrett.bodybyvi.com/ And that’s all I’m gonna say about that. :)
In other news I have really gotten a lot of “need to improve” areas of my life, well, improved. I’m caught up on all my normal house work, tackled some trouble areas for me (aka laundry is my archenemy but I have defeated it for now!). The next big thing we’re going to do is my craft room area- we’re turning it into a guest bedroom. It’s eventually supposed to be the nursery whenever we have children, but since we don’t know when that will happen I’d like to have a functional space… And right now I am NOT crafting, nor do I have any real desire to do so, and I honestly haven’t opened the door to that room in a long time. School kind of broke me in that regard, I know I’ll make my way back eventually. Right now I’m into The Walking Dead, American Horror Story: Coven, getting control of my life, mental well being, and health! I figure I should probably get my shat together with my 29th birthday being less than two weeks away!!